i wanna be this...

rise...


soon.

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luminous star

you came to me at sunset
with your eyes streaked with tears
I reached for your hand while you wept


I didn't dare asked what happened
I was afraid to take the risk
I waited for your trembling voice
as the air doubted with mist


you told me that you love her
you told me that you care
you just couldn't take the hurt
the pain was too much to bear


but she loved somebody else you know
someone you can never be
there's nothing you can do
but your heart couldn't set her free


you said there'll never be another
but you couldn't let her know
it's not worth the loss of your friendship
you're afraid to let it show


tears starts welling up again
it's too much of a burden
you asked for my strongest advice
as you watched with your hopeful eyes


I looked at you with understanding
a turmoil in my heart
my hands pressed yours with sympathy
my feelings were torn apart


"wait for twilight, I told you gently
and try to stare afar
look at the luminous sky above
and wish your name on a star


all you can do is wait and see
you'll know if she's here to stay
if she doesnt, then turn your back
and be ready to face the coming day


I know it'll hurt, the wound will be deep
but time heals, it doesn't stay long
just remember the scar will always be there
to remind you of the past long gone"


your face lit up, I couldn't help but smile
ignoring the turmoil inside
you saw light, hope splitting in the dark
as you bade a greatful goodbye


as I watched you walked away
still hoping you would hear
I wept in silence as I stood outside
my eyes red with sadness and fear


the sunsethad passed, twilight is here
I tried to stare afar
looking at the luminous sky above
and wish your name on a star




- anonymous


saw it in my old notes. I can't remember where I got this... it's an 8 year old notebook full of mushy stuff I wrote.


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each day is a struggle

tommorow is a new battle

yesterday becomes weaker


and everyday I grew stronger ...


the assassin has been trained - to be cold. to survive. to dispose hope. to eliminate it's weakness. to almost die. and to rejuvenate.


the assassin grew stronger...
yes. stronger than ever.


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summer getaway!

just got home form jimenez, misamis occidental. I went there wit' my nursing barkada at chen's cuz's private resort. aw! pwerting kiat! wagtang gud problema kadyot! cool place. it has the amenities one dreams of having. a pool, a centralized pad, an overlooking beach, and 2 gazebos for siestas, massasge, inum or whatever you want to do there for relaxation! pwerting kiat sa mga nurse oi! murag 3am na guro to nangatulog. videoke inum at its height! hahaha! ummm mao rato. ga tripping rakog blog. hehe... ;P

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I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
but the thought of it leads me to temptation
it's the same whatever side you're on
separated we are delicate and small
and the space between us leads my retention


I see it right in front of me
as close as you can get
And the greater you will lead
as a daydream gets


and it might seem much too far
to get back to where you are
but it's close enough
with an ocean size love


So if you can't reach out to me
send a sign across the sea
and I'll pick it up
with an ocean size love


I don't have to worry any more
if I really need you
I'll go to the shore
and the thought that I'll be there
is my protection


I see it right in front of me
a vision in my head
and I know this is as real
as a daydream gets

You make no sound

but I can hear you in the wind

I can see this never ends

like the sea

like you for me...


ocean size love
leigh nash
fave song 04


I heard this song accidentally when I browsed charlotte's friendster. I fell inlove wit it right then and there. it's like being hit by something, and it swept me away. beautiful, beautiful song...haaaaa... this is for you whoever you are...Ü


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and needs to continue...

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guys! mingawwww na kaayo ko ninyoooo!!!

guiang!
auggie!
lapad!
maboc!
grant!
jahson!
nin!
pong! Su! su! su!
ol!
birig!

puno kog tulo o! marcosa bataa!!!
beh! beh! beh! dapuga daws maboc beh! daghan raba kog kwarta ngaris baroy...saman???
ba! birahan unta to nimos bryan! dag bag ba! bangaa bataa! tsk! tsk! oi! oi! nanay chix chix siii...wehehehe! shirley...wa paka ka realize??? tsk! tsk!
moob!!!


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watching the regionals

tangub team...

nanudlo baya murag nakatag-iya sa MCC! haha!

nan-aw mi NMRAA the other day kaming galen ug chen2. we heard duwa daw si pankoy for lanao so adto mi tennis court sa MCC. grabe and bukidnon ug cdo ug mga bola oi...murag bus na wa paraha! tsk! tsk! someday...ana nako ka maayo nila! hehe! abot ra ta ana! ;) grabe among foodtrip ni chen, di ma bang2x. tsk! grabe na kaayo kog kaon karon, I gained 2 kilos. paet! wa namn gud kaayo koi duwa2x. mura 3x a week nalang ko maka duwa!. tsk.tsk. anyways, ni hapon nalang wa gyud gi call ang game ni panky, it was postponed. paet!

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araw ng lala

went to lala this afternoon for a tennis commercial and won P200 ;p! my nalang hehehe! ugma adto napud mi after lunch kay naa mi game w/ galen as my partner... 1,000 minimum! wish us luck! *wink! *wink!* - wa ni na dayon atot lang taas radaw au akong partner! tsk!


akong ncp for our case presentation gi dali2x na nakog buhat, kay karong satrday nami mo defend, dayon 3rd yr na dayon mi!!! weeeee!!! ig ma nurse ko, arkitek na nurse na dayon ko! wahahaha! watch dayon ming chen2x ug wimbledon, pangitaa lang mga kinadak-an ug hat ngadto sa bleachers!hehehe...


adto nakow, goodnight guys! ummm guiang??? bati kag nawng!!! ;p daghan kog kwartaaaa...

capturing poetry # 4

white island sunset

manny and I



white island, camiguin

photos taken by: aef

enhancements by: ahem...

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I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That i'm the one confused


I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
Tonight


breaking the habbit
linkin park


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going places 01

no extra shirt...basa kaayo ko pauli!

diving right in! bahalag y sooton pauli!

with cuz ian who was catching up with the other pawi


with my bestfriend auggie on our second visit

keepsake!

haaay kalami sa life!

my super close encounters with pretty pawikans

went to MOAP (aqua marine) last year just a few miles from ozamis for a dream I never thought would come true. it was meeting the huge sea turtles (pawikan) and the dolphins. I didn't even bother to bring a swim wear nor an extra shirt because I never thought I could swim and play with them. I was with Ian (my cuz) and my parents the first time we went there. It was then that we learned from the care taker who fed the dolphins that we could swim with the pawikans, we were the only visitors there...just us and one family. It was a chance of a lifetime. so I jumped right in, without even thinking twice! bahalag way sooton pauli basta lang makalangoy ko sa mga pawikan. Ian and I played and swam with 4 pawikans for 3 hours. It was one of the best things that had happened in my adventurous life.

the second time we went there was with my parents, my bestfriend auggie, my cousins che-che, khay2x, my aunts liling and mama ely, and tara. this time I made it sure I brought an under water cam. we had one of the unforgettable times of our lives! we fed the dolphins too!(unfortunately we cant swim wit' them. its prohibited) haaaayyy life! lami! ;)

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scubbed out!

wit' aug2x and chen2x

mga taga tc (augusto-ece, chen-pharma, mai-arki) graduates, karon ga nursing na dris lssti! waaaahaha! dollars tirada ba. hehehe...

we had a return demo yesterday on scrubbing... it's a demo assisting the surgeons at the operating room being sterile! (bacteria free ba! hehe!). awa ga kiat ang mga nawng wa naminaw sa c.i.! wahahaha! see that faucet at the back?? ga problema ko ana kay di ko kaabot! wahahaha!

I needed a foot stool to wash my arms (from elbow to hand w/o touching the sink (dapat di gyud mo touch). patay nako nga nurse ani! gamatoy kaayo! paet! ge lang cute man. y mopalag! ;p

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descgeom

a new perspective
the other plane
it's the z of the x and y
it's tomorrow
leaving our past
almost leaving today
click...


a new phase is only one step now
and I shall go in peace...


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Someday...

paula made a testi for me at friendster w/ this...tnx 4 being there mong. grabe ka target ani nga video oi...you had me on the spot!haha! mingaw nako sa atong mga kabuang! don't worry mong, I may be down now, but I'll rise and stand no sooner...smiling.Ü

someday
you'll gonna realize
one day
you'll see this through my eyes
by then
I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
even if I cared...


I know
you don't really see my worth
you think
you're the last guy on earth
well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
but it wont take long
wont take long...


cause someday
someone's gonna love me
the way
I wanted you to need me
someday
someone's gonna take your place
one day
I'll forget about you
you'll see
I won't even miss you
someday
someone's gonna be there...


right now
I know you can tell
I'm down
and I'm not doing well
but one day these tears
they will all ran dry
I won't have to cry
sweet goodbye...

cause someday
someone's gonna love me
the way
I wanted you to need me
someday
someone's gonna take your place
one day
I'll forget about you
you'll see
I won't even miss you
someday
someday...

someday
nina

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missing relaxed hair... & whiter skin. hahay!

whiter than my cousins. tsk!

poised, relaxed, and straight

paet! gusto ko mobalik aniii!!

slim and pretty


hahay...putia pa nako ngari oi

hapit nako mobalik ani...paeeet!!!

I miss being pretty, straight and white. but I'm happy playing tennis. I wouldn't change it for vanity. NEVER. still I can look good while playing tennis. I can still be a pretty player.hehe ;p

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hulagway sa mga kiat nga nars

callgirls/callboy - chen, I & van

dugaya mangabri oi!

ayooo!!!

mag nurse gyud lagi miii!

mga kiatan: chen, wina, jo, nids, lani, harold, van2x, sir lahoy lahoy, pam ug ahem... kinsa pa! hehe.

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saturday: return demo on catheterization, seen so many vaginas and penises that day (plastic lang hinoon.haha). performing cpr, baby bathing and how to change the baby's clothes and diaper (waaaa!!! di pagyud ko kapasar mag minyo!haha! ;p), went home and played one game (tournament). we won 8-2. sayang! ambisyon unta mig loveset kay gi loveset among team pag morning. grrr...

sunday: didn't go to school in the morning because I had a game vs. green team, we lose (almost had an arguement w/ my partner kapitana at the end of the game - her fault, she wants me to just return the ball. sayang! grabe nako ka lingaw sa mga games pag buntag! akoi president sa cheering team. bibo kaayo mi! go blue!hehe! went to school after lunch for our COPAR culmination ( where we conducted nursing intervention and health education with 5 puroks. went to an apartment with the group for a project (I get to do the site map, since I'm the architect of the group, hehehe), had so much fun wit' the group, galen was there too (kun usahay kapoyan kog drive ba, hehe. bilar xag apil.tnx part.). went home at 12 midnight. we were really exhausted but sulit sa kalingaw!Ü

monday (my fave day of the week): na, just played tennis early morning w/ gg (pustaanay coke ug linat-ang baka! yum yum! pamahaway). just stayed home in the afternoon, for a change. ;p

tuesday: hmmm...asa man kog tuesday ha, ako rang na dumduman duwa ko buntag, where was I last tuesday???can't remember.hehe

wednesday: tennis in the morning. had a drinking spree wit friends at my x's house, with gg and atan. they went home after lunch. spent whole day at their house. I went home at 5pm. adto dayon mi nila mommy sa capitol to watch the fountain...I'm glad they were amazed.Ü mura dawg naa states.hehe...

thursday: went to a birthday party. kita mi wit' my other x. inum. inum. inum...ambot pila nato ka case na redhorse dagko. ubay2x man sad to. I'm wit my barkada (john, ate evs, mildred, gg). naigo sad ko adto, so galen drove the car going to capitol, while I drove home after. went home at 11pm. gabii na kaayo na ngaris among bukid! hehe! hapit sad diay ko naigog kilat...mygani hinan-aw ug action, nakalihay rako. mao to, didto ni padung sa water district, karon wa mi tubig. 5 days padaw maayo.paeta!tsk!

friday(today): just got home from a b-day party, saw the PBA's san miguel team (they'll have their game vs. i forgot the other team tomorrow at MCC. duwa ko ganiha, adto pud maranding. gikapoy kog drive oi....mytag naa na koi driver oi...hehehe (mao gamit au ako x.wahaha!). prob ani asa ko maligo ugma. tsk. championship tomorrow after ako exam. excited nako! I'll keep my fingers cross! mytag kadaog mi oi. maninood ngyud ko ani ugma! ;) g'night!Ü

tournament here in baroy will end this coming sunday... and an opening for another summer tournament next week ...at our club. woohoo! excited nakooooo!!! and oh! NMRAA is fast approaching too, that would mean we get to play and meet some regional players during their practice at our tennis club!Ü

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smiling though parched

(summer in bohol)

-been to oblivion including going to my internet options restricting some sites that I don't like to see. it's been almost a week. ah! what a feeling!Ü

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going back

I can do what I want

be where I wanna be

I can do it

because I can do anything.

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I am at lost at those times
but my realizations hit me straight in the face
I realized it's not at all that bad
I've pictured it out
it's clearer than i thought
I am happy here
life is happier here
I've figured it out
life is happier
if you're not here



thank you.
no really, thank you.Ü
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- been to hell and going back... ; )




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summer escape

to oblivion...

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out on a vaca

hmm.... probably greece.


mending...


ending this sweet misery.



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balong

suddenly... you became nothing.




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summer is here!

taking a walk from my bf's to the tennis court. init!

I don't know what my dream last night was, but I sure didn't woke up at the wrong side of the bed...I felt good! I was excited without even knowing what was I excited about. I texted my bestfriend, and I told him I was happy for the first time since someone came in his life. and he was happy for me too. maybe it was the independence I have now, the freedom (just broke up wit' my bf of 6 mos). knowing no one would tell me what to and what not to do. or I just felt the rush...the summer heat... the sun and the sky... inviting... saying the beach is now open for beach bums like me. but this summer is a new phase... for the first time I won't be spending it wit' the boys in cebu, it's summer here in lanao. a new kind of summer... summer here for me is tennis tournaments, chilling out at my x-bf's house and watching the 3 ostriches just across the street in their porch, butong!, kinilaw!, inum (as usual), going places, taking pictures, appreciating views (here in our province which I am very thankful that I live here all my life), summer flings, invitational tournaments from other towns, boys, hanging out with my dogs, driving around with my car, hanging out wit' my parents, and hanging out wit' my new circle of friends. I just love summer!Ü

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M.Y.D.

i dream of a place where i can always smile
in that dream i see you,
i wonder where the trees are?the flowers?the people?
in that dream i only see you
how can i smile in this place full of nothing except you
maybe God has forgotten me...i pitited myself,
even through dreams i can no longer smile
so i sat down and start to cry
and then you came, and said..."hush it will be alright"
then i smiled, a smile i never thought i had all my life.


-tnx for this poem bro.Ü


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TC days

USC-TC

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These dreams go on when I close my eyes

Every second of the night I live another life

These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside

Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

There's something out there I can't resist

I need to hide away from the pain

There's something out there I can't resist

The sweetest song is silence

That I've ever heard

Funny how your feet

In dreams never touch the earth

In a wood full of princes

Freedom is a kiss

But the prince hides his face

From dreams in the mist

these dreams

heart

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model na oh! haha!

pa simod2x lang pero y makalupig model sa globe broad band! wahaha!

way to go paul! e sulong gyud atong dugo! kaliwat ug mga sikat! di na kinahanglan magpasikat aron mosikat!...diba?hehe!Ü pyr!

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crankgears cebu

runs in the blood...

I'm a proud cuz of these guys! pj n' polky won many awards and pj was awarded rider of the year 2006 for downhill racing. whoah! pyter pyter! (pj ascended to motocross racing... I know you can do it! agaw gud ta! nothing is impossible for us! haha! race kawasaki eyt! love you mga gaw! *wink! wink!*



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separated at birth *1

josh hartnett (actor) & rafael Nadal (tennis pro)

- tang! puro mga lami! hehe! ;p

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yes! I'm back to being single... I guess this is what I've always wanted, back to those fling things ...back to being independent...back to going anywhere, anytime without being reprimanded. back to doing anything I want! back to beers and ummm...boys!

and back to being empty... =(

-salamat sa tanan part.

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80's hit stripped

1. missing you - john waite

2. these dreams - heart

3. jessie's girl - rick springfield


4. your love - the outfield


-very nice songs, with other songs like you suck, baby i love your way (acoustic). had to look for these songs, gave it to few special people. unfortunately... tsk.tsk.

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life without you is bitter,

but life with you is suffering...

-that's why I had to loose you even if it means losing a part of myself

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undying flicks 02

year: 1991

genre: romance, drama , true story, biography

tagline: the inspiring true-life adventure of a courageous young rebel who defied the odds...and won.

plot: the true story of heroine Sonora Webster, a determined young rebel who leaves her colorless backwoods home in Georgia to answer a newspaper ad for diving horse girls.

quotes:

Sonora: I can do it because I can do anything!

Al: Why did you never answer any of my letters?

Sonora: I never got any letters.

Al: Well, I wrote you just about everyday.

Sonora: What did you say?

Al: Stuff.

Sonora: What kind of stuff?

Al: Well... you know... stuff!

-I could never forget this movie. this is one of my fave flicks. got me head over heels inlooove. I've been searching for a copy of this film. I've search it in the net, I saw a dvd for sale... but can't buy one... credit card's already cut-off... birthday gift...anyone? hehe... ;p

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I don't fear death

before it sweeps my soul

I am ready

but I fear dying

where death warns

and clocks never help

death is sweet

death is sleep

death helps

but the worse is dying

dying is fair

dying is not fair

dying is my very moment

dying is my ultimate fear

dying is death

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portfolio 02

lazy afternoon

self portraits

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fave text nothings 04

if money doesn't grow on trees
then why do banks have branches?


why does a round pizza come in a square box?


why doesn't glue stick on it's bottle?


why do you still call it building when it's already built?


if its true that we are here to help others
what are others here for?


if you aren't supposed to drink and drive
why do bars have parking lots?


we are a funny bunch of people,
living in a seriously funny world...


sender: rhea


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convo

"kinsay daog adto jun?"

"kami, salagma (smiles)"

"pilay score?"

"kwatro... kwatro otso"

"salagma man nun!"

"kompyansa man...(stares/smiles)"

- x pards.

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to let go is to fear less. and love more...

-anonymous


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pildi napud...paet!

we had a game yesterday, and it's like going to a battle with 300 men over a thousand. it wasn't fair. I have beginner partners! a very sweaty game... I ran like crazy.haha! but at least my first serve was about 40% accurate... hehe.Ü it's a nice game, a good one. but I had to complain to the organizers why was I given beginner partners when the other teams have good deals with their partnership. it so wasn't fair. so they decided to give me a better partner. kapitana! hehe... at least I wouldn't have to worry everytime I play. wouldn't have to worry supporting an always in distress partner. hah! at last justice has served me and the blue team! I have a game this afternoon... at least I'm a bit confident now.Ü

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yes! Ü


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I have often dreamed

Of a far off place

Where a hero's welcome

Would be waiting for me

Where the crowds will cheer

When they see my face

And a voice keeps saying

This is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday

I can go the distance

I will find my way

If I can be strong

I know every mile

Will be worth my while

When I go the distance

I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road

To embrace my fate

Though the road may wander

It will lead me to you

And a thousand years

Would be worth the wait

It may take a lifetime

But somehow

I'll see it through

And I won't look back

I can go the distance

And I'll stay on track

No I won't accept defeat

It's an uphill slope

But I won't lose hope

Till I go the distance

And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory

is the hardest part

For a hero's strength

is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star

I can go the distance

I will search the world

I will face its harms

I don't care how far

I can go the distance

Till I find my hero's welcome

Waiting in your arms...

go the distance

hercules OST

-impossibe is nothing.

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shian & lyka
sisters

-my nieces. and no they are not twins.;p these are few of my fave pics that I took and made for my portfolio. I just love these shots!Ü

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vigil mi last night 4am nami sleep ako mom and relatives aska ako trato naapil ka bilar, so wa nami ka play tennis this morning. txt akong bf adto daw ko ilaha to spend the afternoon so I spent a few hours there wit' him, dayon duwa dayon mi tennis kami partner. pag abot namo court naa dayon hagad namo... wa mi pildi amo mga games today...haha!Ü went home, adto sa wake, chika2x kadyot relatives and tennis players. uli. text. blog. hehe... ;p

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