5 day blues

since wednesday I was temporarily rerouted to bed-the dining table-and back to bed. I was terribly ill until sunday morning, so mom made me skip my weekend classes (thank God! then I don't need to worry about dad getting mad at me on missing school). It started with a simple tonsillitis and the next thing I know, fever started. and then the next day, I had running nose and sore throat that led to dry cough the following day, which resulted to influenza. flu had hit me. I've never felt this weak my entire life... well I suppose I've experienced a few, but it's the first time I was into thinking "tiguwang nagyud ko, di man ko mag ingon ani sauna" it was the first time it ever crossed my mind.

so maybe this is what they call aging...




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kalilangan. a 25 minute-ride from home.

labels: Loving Lanao Del Norte




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smashing

yes! just in time for the beijing olympics, dan (www.sigbin.com)was finally able to make my request- a tennis racquet sketch from one of his beautiful rough collections. and here it is! and so I colored his gift to have the "other" version (I hope you don't mind danilo)of it. thank you bai dan! now I can surely use it on my games in beijing...wish me luck! teehee! ;p

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a sketchy pose at one of toon city's famous alley...
ummm... time square?
hehe...

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the 2.9 million dollar photo

while watching nat geo's Genius of Photography, this photo had my fingers googling on the internet. last febuary 14, 2007 this single photographic image was auctioned at Sotheby's which started at a price of 1 million U.S. dollars and was sold to a particular collector at a whooping 2.9 million U.S. dollars making it the most expensive single photograph ever. Part of the reason for its value and rarity is that it is a very early example of colour photography, produced using the autochrome process. Contributing to its high price is that there are only three known copies in existence; there are two in museum collections in addition to the print sold at auction in 2006.

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Which mythical creature is most like you?

siren

This mythological creature is a sea deity and lured men, often to their deaths. You are close to your friends, but can be dangerous to your enemies.




photo: deviant art


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when I have nothing left to offer this beautiful sunset but beers and a cellphone camera.

baroy dakak


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This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye


I dedicate this song to ama (my grandmother) which if I could turn back time I'd spend all my time with her on her dying days (I didn't know those were her last) ...and I just took it for granted.
this is also for our friend boting who died last week of leukemia. I texted him 2 weeks ago , he didnt texted back and i didn't know he was severely ill til I heard the news that he already passed away...
:,(


this is so far the best song that I've heard from mariah carey. I fell inlove with it the first time I heard it on myx.


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febuary 26, 1993
friday

dear diary,
sorry for the long wait. I haven't write you for so long because I'm so busy with my friends like Bethel and Virgie, they always convincing me! well so much about that----- by thursday, we have no class because of the 7th year EDSA revolution (people's power, -- democracy of the people) I convince my friends yesterday of going to anywhere because "this will only happens oftenly". first... we plan we three will meet at Tiu's residence then rash to crystal studio. thursday... "is bingex there?"...I ask to her father "oh...just knock there". then afterwards we talk then weplan to go first at the department store. "lets go first to gaisano" then we go to crystal.

it was really a good day for me I was not wasting that day but...


I was wasting my money! Im broke!





melody
icepop
shade




one of my daily elementary journals written on a little purple diary that I found while rummaging through old boxes of scented-gone-plain-stationaries. gisunggo ko oi! ;p
pasensya nas namasa... lingaw kaayo ko.hehe... tumbling! wa juy binisaya bisan usa noh!
haha!




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the risk of having my camera fall right into the water was worth it...

"kalilangan"

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yellow green and bluE! the sky's as lovely as you! hehe! I'm baaaaackkkk! done with those hibernating days. done soiling around and tagging my days with bz-doing-nothing. thanks to kai and bogus poet - tinay, they were damn so encouraging. hehe! told you guys I'm not good at this stuff... wa ko'y masuwat. so I'll just make this as an itsy bitsy snaps page. as for today, I have none... been too lazy latEly. I spent days watching the cEnter court, green grass of wimbledon on tv, and tried to play tennis at least once a day to loose those fatty and acidic food I had put into my mOuth non-stop. wapa koi ligo! bye 4 now! Y


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scooter and sea...

Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,

The cigarette ash flies in your eyes, and you dont mind, you smile,
And say the world doesnt fit with you.
I dont believe you, you're so serene.
Careening through the universe, your axis on a tilt, youre guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you...

motorcycle driveby
third eye blind
photo: ramil tapere (thank u for being patient w/ me)


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deviant fave #1

lust...
and only those sheets spinning
in soap and water have witnessed
this passion...


they can only...well...
bubble.

photo by: karma one


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boredom converted to a pain in the neck.
(i usually get back and neck pains whenever I marinate myself in the mainframe).

labels: desktop shot


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having trouble reading what's in his mind? here's a dose of "what was he thinking" med to aid that little confusion. wink!* wink*


1* Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them! (oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE).

2* Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3* Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4* Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5* Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

6* Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

7* Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

8* Guys get jealous easily.

9* Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

10* Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

11* Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

12* A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

13* Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

14* Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

15* Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

16* When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

17* If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

18* If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

19* When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

20* When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

21* Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

22* A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

23* Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

24* Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

25* Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

26* If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

27* Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

28* When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

labels: copy/paste. got this from pearl's blog.
photo from deviantArt



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* Mood: Agony

*

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I ache to look at you speak flowers.I long to brace you and we’ll shatter into feathers. A playful kid threw a giant paper airplane
above us.
*
*
Maybe, there are no seas under your sky. And maybe, maybe you got tired of flying my kites.
*

~



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DO YOU MISS HIM/HER/THEM?
DO YOU MISS YOUR SELF?
DO YOU MISS BEING THE WORLD FOR SOMEONE?
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by: klit-shy. deviantArt.
photo: me.

tinay! I've read your journal and it's the coolest! your words speaks every photographer's thoughts - the zest for and interest in life. reliving moments. once again, thank you for using one of my photos. I love your writings. actually, I envy it... you truly are gifted.

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wa lang. just felt like posting... kay murag wa nakoy dagway sa akong blog. hehe!




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1.Three Names You Go By:

mai2x, mayang, siwagkang(dona isabel dorm days...it's a long story. wink*)

2. Three Things found in your
schoolbag:

- hmmm... cellphone, compact, ballpen

Love Survey: You must answer every
question TRUTHFULLY!!


[01] Are you currently in a
relationship?
- yip!

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?
- yes, from my mom, honestly. hehe

[03] What is your all-time favorite
lovestory movie?
- wild hearts can't be broken. it's an old flick. I saw this movie when I was in grade 6 i think. and I've been looking for a DVD of this film.

[04] Are you inlove right now?
- yeah, I think so, if this is what "inlove" is.

[05] Do you believe that everyone
has a soulmate ?
- yeah I guess... someone told me before that when you look at the stars, wandering where could that person be, that special person is also doing the same thing, right there, at that very moment.

[06] What's your current problem?
- hmmm... kapoy nag skwela

[07] Have you ever had your heart
broken?
- oh yes! a hundred times with the same person.

[08] Your thoughts of online or long
distance relationships?
- naaah... won't work. hago, kapoy, sakit.

[9] Have you ever seen a friend as more
than a friend?
- hupas nani. but yes. and it was very complicated.

[10] The person your with right now,
do you want to spend your life with?
- yeah...maybe. :)

[11] How many kids do you want to
have?
- 2. a gurl and a boy... and both should be tennis players. hihi!

[12] What is/are & your favorite
color?
- green and pink.

[13] Who are your celebrity crushes?
- josh hartnett melts my heart. :D

[14] Do you believe you truly only
love once?
- yeah, I guess so. :)

[15] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse
just died, would you get re-married?
- haha! no way!

[16] Do you believe in love at first
sight?
- oh yes! and whirlwind romance too!

[17] What song u want to be played at
your wedding?
- nah daghan kaayo! but I Do by 98 degrees would sure be on the list.

[18] Do you like anyone?
- yes...i like and love my boyfriend. ;p



way lingaw. got this from cookie's friendster post. ;)


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he loves me...

not entertaining the chillimansi pancit canton popping from what seems to be every side of my brain, instead I took this opportunity taking shots of this beautiful tiny flowers while waiting for our game.


of course, I was with my man. :)


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my grandma told me that if you miss someone, you just call him through a "banga" and he'll be running home or knocking on your door sooner than expected...


I've done that before...right at this very old water jar, but I can't remember to whom I was calling, and I don't know if it worked, I couldn't remember...


labels: good friday.




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Taken from The Voice of Talamban magazine way back college years.


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butuay. jimenez, mis. occ

labels: reminiscing

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nanginhas

photo: me. seawall, baroy.

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tidbits of thanatos

*
I resurrected when
we kissed on a hammock with the empty
night as spectator.

.
You are the scar on my knee.
I am aware that you have a story but I
do not know the plot.

^
The street kid who wore a flower girl dress
died due to hunger because your city mayor
hired too many maids and bodyguards.

=
If ghosts have unfinished business, then
my heart is haunted.

*
The murder of distance would mean
I, writing haiku on your bareback as you
sleep after we made love two inches from
the door.

+
Danger: Accident Prone Area.
Die in my thighs.

=
We were butchered in-betweens but
you taught me how to breathe through
your lips.

*
History celebrates the death of Hitler,
I celebrate the birth of your tyranny over
my slumber.

^
You are too wonderful to die today.

Too
beautiful
for
suicide.




* we all die somewhere

thanks mai for the preview photo.





- reposting modern patadyong's thoughts. thank you klitshy for gracing my snapshots... for believing in me.Ü


photo: me. bee farm, bohol.

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spent tuesday having a lunch date picnic at the seawall. I've been dying to do this since like forever... so it only took me minutes to pack things and foods from the table and drove off to bay-bay with my guy. we're not alone though... we have ants joining our date... and I gave them chocolate cake and shrimp shells! :D



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"Rain rain go away, come a gain another day, little mai2x wants to play" (with two fingers at both hands doing an open-close-scissor-like errr... thing). mao daw nay sumpa sa uwan ingon ang mga tiguwang. I mean the scissor thingy (ako2x ra ang chant...hihi!) and i do this almost everyday, everytime I play tennis because it drizzles almost every afternoon here. darn! seems like there's no summer happening here in lanao...excited na unta kos summer feeling oi! tsk! :(


photo: selojRamu.deviant art

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